"And never slurp the strognoff."

Because the one thing i want more than anything in the world is to weigh 95 to 98 lbs. and i have gained some devilish Christmas pounds i have decided to take my crazy diet to the blog to make it more official and HOPEFULLY i will get somewhere, and look extra sexy for my boyfriend's return.

Current weight: 115 lbs
Goal weight: 98 lbs
Difference: 17 lbs
Days: 7
Lbs per day: roughly 2.5
Practicality: null

Obviously this isn't going to work. However i can be as extreme as i can possibly manage without fainting as long as it takes me to reach my goal weight. The absolute deadline is my birthday February 28.

The plan:
Do pilates and aerobics as much as possible.
Drink iced tea like there's no tomorrow.
Have one light sandwich a day including:
1 slice of whole wheat bread
turkey
spicy brown mustard
Eat one piece of dark chocolate everyday
Look in the mirror when you wake up each day and tell yourself your beautiful.

The weight isn't the only issue. Some beauty tid-bits i feel i should touch upon are:
Lotion whole body everyday. Continue to shave "delicates." Pluck/ shape eyebrows. Stretch a little everyday. Continue using acne cleanser. Brush teeth thoroughly + use tooth pick to whiten. Use cuticle cream. GET SLEEP! Use medicine on split lip.

And lastly do a little homework every night, and find alternatives to watching tv.

Best of luck Erica! You deserve this.

"Could it be?"

I have a hard time functioning when i feel ugly (call me shallow and simple, and maybe its true) but the fact of the matter is that i have a whole list of chores that are piling up and need to be done no later than 5 o'clock today, Christmas Eve 2009.

The Agenda:

Buy Costa Vida gift card
Buy hand mixer
Think of something creative to go into Gramp's present
Get Papa and Grandpa's hand print
Wrap all presents
Deliver all presents
Put laundry away
Clean basement
Do pilates
Take shower
Look presentable to go to church.

HAHA I'm joking right?
No.
GURR! Stupid church! *lighting bolt*
I wasn't aware i would have to go to church until today at 12:30. I guess i am going to have to continue feeling fat and cut out the pilates part. Alright well... enough procrastinating time to get things done.
Wish me luck!

"I just forgot... romance"

A few months ago i sat down to watch a romantic comedy, burst out in tears, and threw my used tissues at the screen yelling that the hackneyed "happily ever after" doesn't come true in real life. Today, i sit here humbled. Several thousand miles away, there exists a man who plays my counter part in our own romantic comedy. Despite all my promises to myself that i wouldn't let myself fall into the broken-heart-trap that is high school "love" he refuses to be anything but my every thought. For once in my life my happiness is drowning out my fears, and I am letting myself think irrationally. The only problem: he is in California for Christmas break. I will survive... I hope.

And now i see how bipolar i can be. I just got off the phone with him and we had nothing to talk about which really upset me because we were just frustrating each other, and now I'm pissed and don't know what to do with myself. Eureka! We have a hard time communicating and understanding each other because i am a very private person (i only express myself through this blog which i don't let my friends know i have) i don't explain who i am to anyone even my closest friends, and he want me to, and i don't know how to nor do i want to. *sigh* What to do?

My final thought on the matter: Give him all you have it hurts him too much when you act logically.